“You find yourself alone, sometimes. Without a home, no protection. You don’t know which way to go. You’re lost, no direction”. To be free – Mike Oldfield.
And when in the middle of the night the desperation vanishes and we start to move, this is the feeling: Like wandering in a forest of endless trees, feeling all directions the same. All the effort of rising, of standing up again to find the exit of the labyrinth, just to discover that all the paths look exactly the same and exit might just be an illusion, with not a real existence.
Sometimes we feel confident, in a rush of security, and we make long term plans. We decide what is good and what is bad, and we grasp a clear path towards our objectives. But when we start walking again, the landscape of our feelings drastically changes from one step to the next, and is easy to lose the planned path.
In real forests, the solution is simple: Find a recognizable landmark (a tall tree, a river… maybe the sun). Something that allows you to walk in a straight line until you reach the end of the forest. But when the tall trees of our forests are problems, situations, people around us… how can we find the equivalent of a landmark?
The solution is confidence in a person who knows the best for us. Perhaps is a friend, someone who we trust even if we don’t share its point of view. And even if trusting another person blindly doesn’t make us feeling comfortable, thinking in the “us from the past” as an independent person can help to keep working into finding the solution. If in a previous moment of mind clarity we decided what it was good, maybe trusting those decisions, even if they seem blurry now, might lead to the desired solution. Of course, some decisions taken in advance seem terrible once we are forced to face them in the appropriate moment. But, if that’s the case, we know for sure what to do, so we cannot consider ourselves lost. It is when everything seems diffuse and nothing seems correct when trusting any external help, no matter what, will lead us out of the forest. And even if the path leads us to the opposite direction we wanted, we will be able to correct that once we are outside the forest.
My statistics teacher told me once, many years ago: “The closest you are to something, the less you see it”. Perhaps that’s the reason why we need to really trust someone else when we are lost, even if it supposes a risk: It is worse to roam in circles for the rest of our lives.
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